PARENTS!! PARENTS!

I FUCKING HATE PARENT!!
THEY FORCE ME TO BE PERFECT!
I CAN'T! I wanna cry! but I am not!
they don't deserve my tears! they don't know the value of it!
They will never know the value of me until they lose me !

Parents suck!

WTF?! I can't be perfect! but they always force me to , and if I don't they will beat me...
My only source of happiness is my phone..and they fuckin take it!
I swear ! If they fuckin sell it, I am gonna kill myself..
I mean, no one ever help me...no one here for me...only my phone!
my phone is where I find happiness
my phone have music,1D,Ed sheeran, Demi lovato, and games
I can't live without it! My life gonna be living hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Still alive

yeah so ..I scared my parents will find out about my mark, its not perfect..oh crap! they will beat me !
Someone help me! I want to die!

I can't

I don't think I can do this anymore...
I promise him I will survive, but I can't
I am not typical girl who like to lie..NO!
I always do my promise..but I can't do this..
Anyone?! Save me!

MP3 !!

http://scmplayer.net/#skin=http://static.tumblr.com/ntstnli/FUbmkfpgk/rabiscos.css

believe me its cool as fuck

Yeah I am talking to myself, right?! No one read this..

no one care about me..
NO ONE! and its kill me
everyone came then leave
no one stay..

My fear

My biggest fear is when people suddenly leave me without reason    Hello guys, today I wanna tell u about my biggest fear, so yeah, my biggest fear is losing people who are important to me.. it happen several time but it still be my biggest fear all the time.

The truth

the truth is people used to bully me in the past
and its still hurt..like seriously..
now I am know as a good girl..but they don't know anything about me
and I believe soon they all will leave me alone and bully me

Think before u speak

words hurt people
it dangerous
u have to be careful with words
one word can kill somebody
a single world mean much
u don't know how a single little things can hurt someone
so please think before u speak

I am weak and sensitive

It is sad because its true


 

No it's not stupid

People say " they are stupid! why they have to committing suicide! committing suicide is stupid!"

well, take a look at the picture !

You don't know what they went through! so don't judge

Don't judge me

 no! don't judge me
you never through the way I through
u never feel what I feel
so please don't start to judge me

you wouldn't understand
and I can't explain

y

I known as people who always give good advice
and stop people from committing suicide
but here am I ..
people who can't save myself
and always committing suicide

How it started

 I have abusive parents, they always tell me to be perfect and else and hit me when I don't.

Then I lost best friend.
They betray me.

I have no one to hold on.
I think, I could hold on to one direction.
well yeah , but only for a while..
but they do save my life..
How?
At least I think  there are somebody who care..

I always give anything whatever it cost to make my best friend happy...
but..
they betray me..


people say, God's first gift is parent
well haha, no! My parents is abusive
they always hit me and angry to me
they love my sisters but not me

I then realized, no one want me
no one care about me..
so why not die? everyone care when its too late, right?!

There how it start..how my life changes to living hell

Introduction

Hello guys, 

My name is Michelle

I am 15 years old

So this is a blog where I tell what happen "behind the scene" A.K.A my unexpected sight.

People know me as a nice , caring , and loved 

but they don't know how my life "behind the scene"

they don't know about the cut

they don't know about how I hate myself

they don't know how bad I want to die

they don't know how I starved

I am not living just surviving

monster inside me eat me inside

NO,happily ever after never exist for me

some girl aren't meant to be princess,they meant to be warrior 

so here is my story...